Mom's know...


I was talking with my Mom last night.  I was telling her about my quest to learn who I am and what I like outside of my kids, and this is how the conversation went...

Me:  Mom, I'm doing something I don't think I've ever taken the time to do before.  I want to learn more about me and I need to have interests and an identity outside of my kids.  I'm really concerned I'm going to be alone after they are off to college if I don't break out of this rut I've created.
Mom:  I am so glad that you're finally taking time for you and to learn you.  I wish I had taken more time to do that before I was sick, but honey, I think you're having a pre-empty nest syndrome attack.
Me:  I'm laughing so hard, I could hardly speak. (hahahahahaha!!).  
Mom:  I think you might be freaking out about your oldest baby getting ready for college.  Is that blowing your mind?
Me: Yes, I think it is kind of freaking me out and making me more aware that I need to stop hiding behind my kids and start having interests of my own. 
Mom: A lot of women go through this self questioning about about your age, or if there is a divorce or if the kids are grown and moving on with their lives. I went through it after you and your brothers all moved out.  Its a crazy time in a woman's head.
Me:  Through my laughter, Oh my goodness...yes, my brain is going crazy!!!  What do I do?
Mom:  Valium
Me:  I could not stop laughing...  Then I said, hummmm, something to consider.   Just kidding...I think I can work through this without Valium, but it was so funny!!!

Mom's are GREAT, aren't they? 

Let me tell you about my Mom...she is a loving, wonderful, special and strong person, and has so much compassion and understanding.  She has been fighting Ovarian cancer for the last 5+ years, lived through peritonitis, terrible surgeries, wounds that wouldn't heal, terrible sickness, radiation, and so many rounds of chemo, but she's the most beautiful and positive terminally ill person you'll ever meet (that's our little joke to have something to laugh about).   She is definitely my role model!!!  My brother calls her Roomba, which is absolutely hilarious.  The reason is...she is on steroid medication with her chemo, which gives her energy, and she is a little unstable on her feet, so she is constantly moving, but runs into things sometimes.  She'll run into a chair and turn and keep moving!  It's the funniest thing to watch...nothing gets in her way!  GO ROOMBA!!!!!

 

It wasn't until she was in her 60s and diagnosed with cancer when she had a change of perspective and started thinking of herself and living to do the things that make her happy.  She has not stopped living...traveling, cruises, spending a lot time with family, etc.. 


Watching her go through this terrible thing, called cancer, has shown me just how short life is...I think its important to start living it now!!!!